I finally got my first contact lens today. It feels so weird not wearing glasses because I wore glasses all my life. My family’s telling me that I look so different in a good way.
This is so true July 14, 2008
This was forwarded to me and I completely agree with it especially the part when he treats you like shit, don’t bother being friends with him. I’m not friends with my ex anymore because of that reason. He was cold and distant towards me.
If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn’t want you, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache. Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that’s not meant to be. Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can’t “be friends.” A friend wouldn’t mistreat a friend. Don’t settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Don’t stay because you think “it will get better.” You’ll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better. The only person you can control in a relationship is you. Avoid men who’ve got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn’t marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently? Always have your own set of friends separate from his. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up. Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later. You cannot change a man’s behavior. Change comes from within. Don’t EVER make him feel he is more important than you are… even if he has more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less. Never let a man define who you are. Never borrow someone else’s man. If he cheated with you, he’ll cheat on you. A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you. All men are NOT dogs. You should not be the one doing all the bending…compromise is a two way street. You need time to heal between relationships…there is nothing cute about baggage… deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you…a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals…look for someone complimentary…not supplementary. Dating is fun…even if he doesn’t turn out to be Mr. Right. Make him miss you sometimes…when a man always know where you are, and you’re always readily available to him- he takes it for granted. Never move into his mother’s house. Never co-sign for a man. Don’t fully commit to a man who doesn’t give you everything that you need. Keep him in your radar but get to know others.
Bugs like to eat me July 14, 2008
I received a lot of bug bites in the past week. I don’t know how many, but there’s a lot. Let me count.
So far, I counted 14. Most of them on my arms. I’ll have to check my Oreo for fleas. 
Speaking of Oreo, I get jealous if someone else takes Oreo away from me and carries him around as if he’s theirs. I’m like *hisses!* Oreo is not a property to me at all, he’s my buddy and of course belongs to me. 
Ghost stories July 14, 2008
I’ve been reading ghost stories to keep myself amused lately. I have my own ghost stories to share and I swear that they’re 100% real. They happened to me. I still remember them clearly and I wasn’t hallucinating or anything.
This one isn’t really a ghost story, but some kind of a psychic moment. One night, I was eating at Sizzler with my family. I was enjoying my macaroni and cheese and then all of sudden, I dropped my fork onto the plate and looked at my mom. I said to her, “I saw Death. He’s dead.” I don’t know how I said it. I just knew. My mom laughed it off as a childish moment. Sure enough, next morning I found out that one of my childhood friends killed himself and he was only 11. He killed himself around the same time I said that he’s dead.
When I was about 8 or 9, I was very ill. I had a high fever, horrible coughs, everything. It was just terrible. I could hardly breathe so I stayed in my bed crying. It happened to be St. Patrick’s that night when I went to bed. I was having a hard time sleeping because of the coughs and feeling hot. I looked up at the ceiling hoping to fall asleep and then felt something sit down at the end of my bed. I thought it was maybe my cat so I looked, but it wasn’t a cat at all. Don’t laugh at what I’m about to say, but I swear that I saw a leprechaun. I froze and held my breath. I couldn’t see the details because it was pitch dark in my room that night, but I could see his outline clearly. His top hat, beard, short stocky figure. The only thing that really bothered me was that he had glowing red eyes. I got really scared and then covered my head with my sheet and cried myself to sleep. Next day, I magically felt all better.
Throughout my childhood, I constantly got the feeling of being watched. I even caught a figure watching me watching tv in a mirror above the tv. It was creepy, but I ignored it. I cared more about my tv show than a figure watching me or even watching tv. I have no idea! I was a teenager at that time.
When I was about 17 or 18, my bestfriend came over for a sleepover. We decided to play with Ouija. Bad idea. Don’t ever play with it. We were playing with it and my bestfriend started asking it random questions and I had no idea what she was asking, but I spelled them out for her. Then of course, we had to ask for a proof. The board told us to go outside and sit in my jeep at exactly midnight, then something will happen. Oh it sure did happen. It scared us witless. Anyways, we went outside and sat in my jeep just few minutes before midnight. We were just lalaing and then we started to hear strange drumbeats. It seemed to be coming from my backseat, right behind us. It was getting louder and faster. I was starting to get creeped out by that so I told my friend to just go back inside with me. When we were about to get out, a lightning bolt struck right by my window. It was a clear night, stars were seen everywhere… No clouds at all… I have no idea where the lightning came from. I started to have a panic attack and wanted to get out, then my friend gasped and pointed to the front of my jeep. There was a hooded figure walking towards us. We completely freaked out and ran back inside my house, locked all the doors, and went to sleep holding each other’s hands. Next day, we were walking down my driveway when a tree fell down in front of us unexpectedly with no warning. And then we discovered our automatic gate, the kind that you have to open with a code or remote, completely broken and pushed past its little “pad” that prevents it from going backwards and break. It’s nearly impossible to push the gate past its “pad” unless you use something with powerful force like a car or tractor, but the gate wasn’t dented or anything. No sign of paint damage. I’m never playing with Ouija again.
Throughout my life, I occasionally get a whiff of something strong. Few times, it smelled like cigar and one time it was a strong whiff of a lovely perfume. I have no idea where they came from, no one smokes or wear perfumes in this house. I just like to think of those whiffs as my grandparents watching me and I’ve never met them because they died before I was born. I still get the feeling of being watched, but not as frequently as it used to be when I was younger. Sometimes, I feel my bed compressing somehow as if someone’s sitting on it and I would feel movements near my legs as if an animal is curling up there. I’ve had 2 dogs and many cats pass away so I consider that as letting me know that they’re still watching me. It’s just kind of comforting, I guess.
Okay, I think that’s all for now.
